hey, sorry I haven't been on working on the new story. It's because I am sort of in a bit of depression.
See there's this guy i like, and he knows how i feel about him. and he dates random people, only because his ex girlfriend dumped him, and he asked his friend to find him a girl, and he said to him that he can find it himself. and then he said i can't, and blah blah how life suxs without her, and he wants to be in a serious relationship. then on the 15th i find out he has a girlfriend who he already has dated before. they started dating 4 days ago, and anyways, hes been ignoring me lately. so ive been crying in my sleep, having bad dreams, and usually when im around him at school. i cant really talk to him, because of some bad tramazenting things ive been threw. and one of the tramazenting things ive been threw is a guy whom i like gets a girlfriend and makes out and does all this stuff in front of me, and i am really strolic about it, but sometimes i want to cry, so i try to run away from it. and my biggest fear is losing him and if i tell him that its brothing me, then im afraid it will only annoy him and push him away. so i am considering of not being his friend, but that sort of made it worse, i started to feel moppy, and always hungry and not eating feeling sick. and stuff. so i dont know. so i decided not to defriend him. but i dont know what to say to him or what to do. why is he doing this to me? why is it always me?
and then people at school always find ways to get on my nerves, and tortune me. and call me names like ugly, and bad words. so i started to believe that im unappealing and that i have no soul. because no one wants me anymore. other then my family.
my home life is fine. but most of my tramazing moments are stuff like having my diary read in front of the whole class, when i wasn't there. like being pushed around. and stuff.
so basically now everytime i try to talk, i sweat up, feel sick, lightheaded, dizzy, and headaches. So i don't really talk to anyone. especially when i feel like i want to cry, cause i dont like crying in front of people at school.
so idk. i'll try to be his friend. but i need some advice. i honestly dont know what to feel around him anymore.... PS. Hes never done anything rude or anything mean to me. other people have.
Well firstly he is saying he misses her and wants to be with her because well common sense, we are humans we have emotion and when your with someone your with them because you care about them, and if your with them long enough then you can't really imagine your life without them. He is dating all those other girls because he's on a rebound he's trying to fill the void of not having the original girl.
You can't not be friends with him because well evidently you care about him as well. The thing about life is that it doesn't always go our way right. You can care about someone perhaps even love someone (not necessarily in your case) and they may not feel the same way at all. The human heart is a mystery, what makes us cry what makes us care about someone what causes pain.
The bullies are a part of life, and believe it or not when you get out of high school, it doesn't get a whole lot better. Most people grow up but there are still a few people there, all you can do is show them that it doesn't bother you. Bullies or people who stand around laughing feed off of knowing that what they do bothers you. Next time they do something just walk away with no emotion or laugh at it, nothing makes me happier then laughing at my own stupidity sometimes.
Right now your grade 11, maybe 12. Your 17 and your in high school. You are going to have so many ups, so many downs that you won't know how to deal with it all. I.E. Not feeling well, headaches, dizzy, and so on. Your family loves you and will always be there for you so try talking to them, cause you know you can turn to them whenever you need. Enjoy high school cause it won't last forever. As for this guy, if he wants to play around like this i know it'll be hard but you need to get over him. He's only a high school crush, it'll go away i promise. Go have fun and enjoy being young. Hope this helps.
aww huni do be so depressed it just a boy u will get over him ive been through the same thing now we aren't friends and we just get on with our lives. so just try to forget him trust you will thank me later!
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